TEARS ON MY PILLOW

"TEARS ON MY PILLOW
Little Anthony and the Imperials

You don't remember me, but I remember you
't was not so long ago, you broke my heart in two
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart, caused by you, you

If we could start anew, I wouldn't hesitate
I'd gladly take you back, and tempt the hand of fate
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart, caused by you,

Love is not a gadget, love is not a toy
When you find the one you love, she'll fill your heart with joy

If we could start anew, I wouldn't hesitate
I'd gladly take you back, and tempt the hands of fate
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart, caused by you, you
Oh wo wo wo you you
FADE: wo oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh"



When the first guy I really truly loved and I broke up I listened to this song OVER and OVER and OVER again. It said exactly what I was feeling so it felt very appropriate to listen to it. Sad I know, but give me a break!

Well ever since then whenever I feel sad or something I listen to this song! When I first started doing that I would say to myself, "hey you got over that guy you can get over anything." It worked really well as a self affirmation at the time.

Now when I just listened to this song I still thought of that time, where I was heart broken and couldn't eat or sleep or function outside of the minimum that was required of me, and thought "wow that was a terrible time." Then I listen to the words of the song. I thought to myself, "hmmm do I still feel that way?"

I thought long and hard! Do I really want to tempt the hands of fate and start again with this guy?? Ever since this guy and I broke up I thought that I would love to be with him again. I never really questioned that feeling until this morning when I turned this song on!

So after much careful deliberation I have decided that I don't really feel that way anymore. Mind you I still love this guy, I think I always will (he was my first love after all), but I don't want to be with him. Can I just tell you what a great feeling that was to realize?!

I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders! Weird I know because it happened so many years ago. But as I said I had never really taken inventory of my feelings about the subject other than I knew I had felt like that in the beginning and figured I still felt that way.

At any rate just wanted to share!