Resolution Update

> Get a Passport and go out of the country
> Read at least one book a month
> Eat Better
> Do a full body cleanse at least twice this year
> Exercise more regularly
> Save money
> Travel somewhere I haven't been in the United States
> Dance every chance I get
> Do well in school
> Grow my hair long
> Make more of an effort to be close to my immediate and extended family

Above is the list of New Year's Resolutions I have made. So far I feel I have been successful in a few areas.

> I have not yet bought a passport. I keep saying I'll do it tomorrow.. Trust me tomorrow will come.
>I have kept up on my reading... just barely though! I'm gonna work harder on that one!
>I have started to eat more fruits and vegetables which is awesome (I had cut out sodas, but I fell off the wagon and now I'm gonna start again).
>I have not done a full body cleanse... to tell you the truth I am kind of scared to after reading about them... so I may or may not do that one!
>I have started going dancing a lot more... which doesn't really count as exercise in my book, but it's better than sitting around all day. I am going to start frequenting the gym more often though.
>I saved some money since this was written. Definitely not enough, but I can do a better job at that too!
>I will be traveling to Minneapolis May 1st to the 3rd! Woohoo for being able to completely check one off!
>I have been dancing every chance I get it is awesome how much more I appreciate dance as an art form and as a hobby!
>I haven't been really good about going to class... and I keep saying to myself that I'm gonna do better, but I keep forgetting. So now I have to get my butt in gear!
>HA! my hair is still WAY short!! but that's because of all of the stuff I've done to it!
>Being close to my family is still a work in progress!

Incompleteness in Absence

I have recently started doing what most people around my age do. Try to find out "who they are." I know a few things about myself, that I have always known, and I've discovered new things that I hadn't really realized before!

One of the things that I realized is how I know I feel love or compassion toward one person. And the following quote describes it. This quote has been on my facebook profile page ever since I signed up for the blasted social networking site. The reason it ended up on there was because I didn't have any quotes to put in my favorite quotes section.

Now you may be thinking well that doesn't make much sense... if you didn't have any quotes how did you get this one? Well my friend the answer consists of 6 letters... GOOGLE! yes I googled Love quotes. This along wih many other came up. I chose a few of the most romantic ones and posted them to my facebook page.

There's the story, but let's get to the meat of this blog post. The quote and what actually going back and reading it has done for me!

Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.
-Edmond and Jules de Goncourt

I knew i felt love for people. The question now was how did I know I love people or how can i describe what it is to love someone. I feel this quote did a magnificent job of doing just that!

When I was in love the first time when I was with him I felt that we were two halves of a whole, peas in a pod, those heat friendship medallions fused together... I could go on and on. When that love was lost I felt like incomplete. I felt that a huge part of the puzzle had been taken away.

As a result of that heart break I am kind of scared to admit that I could possibly be falling for someone again. This is what I have been dealing with recently. Nothing different from anyone else. It's just prevalent in my thinking recently, as you can tell.

I was talking to a very dear friend of mine tonight, he helped me realize a few things that I've always believed, but haven't been practicing. One of my favorite Marilyn Monroe quotes says "... If you can't handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best..." The same can be said in any type of relationship. If you aren't willing to wait out and work through the bad in a relationship you don't deserve the best that the relationship could be.

I feel this post is kind of all over the place and that maybe I should stop while I'm ahead, if I am even still ahead. The problem is the wheels in my head are still turning. I'm "thinking... a dangerous past time... I know" (whoever can name the movie gets extra points).

Hopefully I will be able to stop the wheels long enough to get some shut eye.

Dancing Bio

I was sooo excited about this that I just had to post it! Thanks to Morgan Day's creative writing he made what I wrote even better! Here is the final product!

Up-and-coming dancer, Karen Vizzard, first became enamored with Lindy Hop in 2003, when she was introduced to the dance at a Big Bad Voodoo Daddy concert in Santa Monica. Since then, she has dedicated herself to become an exceptional follow, as well as a versatile dancer with experience in Balboa, Collegiate Shag, and Solo and Partnered Charleston. Her competition experience includes, placing 1st in Utah’s 2007 Invitation Lindy Hop Jack & Jill, 2nd Place in the Pure Balboa Division at the 2008 San Francisco Balboa Battle, and 4th place in the Collegiate Shag Division at The National Jitterbug Championship in 2009. While attending school in Utah, Karen was a Lindy Hop instructor at Utah State and the University of Utah, and coached the Swing Team at Brigham Young University. Her other credits include performing with the Hollywood Hotshots, as well as being cast as a dancer in Katy Perry's music video "Thinking of You" and being cast as a principal dancer for the episode “Static” on the TV show “Cold Case.”