Incompleteness in Absence

I have recently started doing what most people around my age do. Try to find out "who they are." I know a few things about myself, that I have always known, and I've discovered new things that I hadn't really realized before!

One of the things that I realized is how I know I feel love or compassion toward one person. And the following quote describes it. This quote has been on my facebook profile page ever since I signed up for the blasted social networking site. The reason it ended up on there was because I didn't have any quotes to put in my favorite quotes section.

Now you may be thinking well that doesn't make much sense... if you didn't have any quotes how did you get this one? Well my friend the answer consists of 6 letters... GOOGLE! yes I googled Love quotes. This along wih many other came up. I chose a few of the most romantic ones and posted them to my facebook page.

There's the story, but let's get to the meat of this blog post. The quote and what actually going back and reading it has done for me!

Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.
-Edmond and Jules de Goncourt

I knew i felt love for people. The question now was how did I know I love people or how can i describe what it is to love someone. I feel this quote did a magnificent job of doing just that!

When I was in love the first time when I was with him I felt that we were two halves of a whole, peas in a pod, those heat friendship medallions fused together... I could go on and on. When that love was lost I felt like incomplete. I felt that a huge part of the puzzle had been taken away.

As a result of that heart break I am kind of scared to admit that I could possibly be falling for someone again. This is what I have been dealing with recently. Nothing different from anyone else. It's just prevalent in my thinking recently, as you can tell.

I was talking to a very dear friend of mine tonight, he helped me realize a few things that I've always believed, but haven't been practicing. One of my favorite Marilyn Monroe quotes says "... If you can't handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best..." The same can be said in any type of relationship. If you aren't willing to wait out and work through the bad in a relationship you don't deserve the best that the relationship could be.

I feel this post is kind of all over the place and that maybe I should stop while I'm ahead, if I am even still ahead. The problem is the wheels in my head are still turning. I'm "thinking... a dangerous past time... I know" (whoever can name the movie gets extra points).

Hopefully I will be able to stop the wheels long enough to get some shut eye.