Everything, but Nothing

WARNING THIS MAY RAMBLE AND MAKE NO SENSE (IT IS 2:00 AM)



So the other day I was filling out an about me section (the bane of my existence) and I described myself as "everything, but nothing." On a previous about me section I had listed contradicting statements that were all true. For example, I described myself as "...lovable, [but] hate-able..." Well this got me thinking.

How can I be a walking ball of contradictions?! Wouldn't that make me a hypocrite?

Well I came to this realization siting in Biology on Tuesday, while we were talking about atoms and their components. As my teacher was talking about how the protons and the electrons balance each other to make an atom neutral I figured that there was something more to this. Then I remembered in the book Angels and Demons it presented an idea that everything has an opposite to make the universe stable (The book used matter and anti-matter)

I applied this concept of balancing everything out to me and my personality. Well maybe to make ourselves somewhat stable (I mean let's face it, who in this world is REALLY stable?!) we need to have opposites in our personality.

It was just an interesting thought that came to mind as I was trying to come up with something funky fresh to describe me. At the moment I'm satisfied with it...

"I'm everything, but nothing."

The thing that you get into now is what do you mean by everything, but nothing?

For me it means that I can do everything I can to please/help others, but in the self-less act I'm still selfish, because why am I doing it? It makes ME feel good. The list can go on.

I am everything because of my great friends and my religion, but I am nothing because without those factors I couldn't see reason to do anything.

I am everything because I have the ability to be everything, but I'm nothing because some outside force may stop me.

I am everything to one person, but nothing to another.

There are a lot of things that can contribute to the everything, but nothing description.

So again I'm satisfied with being "everything, but nothing."