A Little Like Tiffany

For the first time ever I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's. I've been putting it off so long because I wanted to read the book first! Unfortunately, I kept forgetting to start reading the book. Today I said, "Forget it! I'm watching it!"

The first thing I have to say is it was a GREAT movie! I love it! This movie just re-affirmed my love/hate relationship for Audrey Hepburn! I love her because she's gorgeous and talented, I hate her because she's gorgeous and talented!

The reason I'm blogging is not to tell you that this movie is fantastic and that I think everyone should watch it (which I do believe), but there was a quote that was said that really stuck out to me. So much that I actually went and googled the memorable quotes of the movie, found it, and copy/pasted it to my favorite quotes section in Facebook! So here it is...

Quick background: Paul, who is madly in love with Holly, is getting out of cab saying this to her as a result of her wanting to run away to Brazil even after her future President of Brazil dumped her.

"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, 'Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness.' You call yourself a free spirit, a 'wild thing,' and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
-Paul Varjak (Breakfast at Tiffany's)

I just thought to myself, "Wow." I think we can all relate to that in some way. I, for one, think that I'm very close to Holy in the fact that I'm scared of love. I call my self a hopeless romantic, which is true, but I'm scared of falling in love. I always dream of finding the man of my dreams falling in love and living happily ever after. Often times I say, "that's just a dream." I have seen far too many things not to be guarded in some way against the cage that love sometimes brings with it.

I was one that was already in a cage. I wasn't allowing myself to live life to the fullest and take advantage of the things life had to offer me. I had my heart broken and was scared that someone else would do the same. So I used the same excuses. I'm not going to fall for anyone, they're just gonna hold me down, I'm a free spirit, blah blah blah! Luckily I realized love is a part of life, life is a part of love.

Now, I'm not saying I'm in love and I'm not saying that me watching "Breakfast at Tiffany's" was the life changing experience, but it helped me remember what had been going on and what change had happened in my life! It was just pretty neat that I could relate to a movie Audrey Hepburn was in!

Waiting

I'm sure most of the people that know me know that I am a server. I wait tables at a small family owned business called The Pizza Cookery. I love working there! It is a really nice chill laid back job. I love the people I work with, I love the food, and I love that I actually have a job when so many people don't!

Although I love my job I also HATE it at times! Since it is a small restaurant we have many "regulars" that come in at least once or twice a week. Most of them are friendly and nice, which is great, but there are those that expect just because they eat there once a week you should bend over backwards for them. I mean just short of putting a bib on them and spoon feeding them.

This blog is for all of those out there who go into restaurants and make a server's night a living hell... I'm going to make a list of things most servers hate, so we can all learn from it! (The list may grow as time goes on.) And by all means if you have anything to add say it... I'll most likely put it down on the list!

Most servers hate....

---> When there is a bright pink sign right in front as you walk in that says "Please Wait to be Seated" and you seat yourself, then proceed to get mad when you are not gotten to right away.

---> If a server comes to the table and asks if everything is alright you just sit and stare at him/her.

---> When you see a server is pre-busing your table and his/her hands are full but you decide to keep piling the dishes up on what he/she already has in his/her hands.

---> If a server comes up to your table and asks if you need anything, and you need a refill, you shake your empty glass instead of using your words.

---> When you yell across the restaurant for anything, especially when he/she was just at your table and asked you if you needed anything.

---> When you get GREAT service and you only tip 10%.

---> When you don't leave a tip for good service, and on top of that you make a game out of it and put a smiley face on the tip line of the credit card receipt.

---> When you lower the tip you give because you were not impressed with the food. (The servers didn't make your food for crying out loud!)

---> When it is FREEZING outside and you sit with the front door of the restaurant open for a long time waiting for your slow party behind you.

---> When you just sit there and talk for more than 30 minutes after you finish your meal.

---> If you walk in 10 minutes before the restaurant closes.

---> When you talk down to them as if they don't understand what you're saying. (Most servers are going to school and have more education than most of the rude people that do this.)

---> If you ask for free bread refills 3 or 4 times and all you order is a water and the cheapest thing on the menu.

Ski Adventure!

Yesterday I went Skiing for the second time in my life!

For only my second time I have to say I was really proud of myself for doing so well. I felt I was doing better and in more control by the end of the day. But that was only the end of the day... you may be wondering what happened at the beginning of the day.

First Tim, Sarah, Brian, and I all woke up and had breakfast (some were more awake than others). Next we all got our snow gear on, got the car all loaded up, and went to buy lift passes and ski/snowboard rentals.

On our way up to Solitude I fell asleep. Therefore, I don't remember much of the ride. I'm sure it was a good one though.

We finally get to the mountain! It was a beautiful warm day! we all get our gear on and start heading to the lift. The first run we do is the bunny hill... which was good, because it gave me the chance to refresh my memory and remember how to kind of ski.

Tim and Sarah then decided I was ready for a more advanced run. I was pumped and excited! All 4 of us went got on a different lift and started down. It was good... I fell once and Tim sprayed me with snow as negative reinforcement. :/

The next run all four of us start out together. Half way down the run Brian gets separated from us. we just continue the run hoping to see him down at the bottom. He wasn't there. Tim, Sarah, and I then head back up the lift to the top of the run to see if he went a different way. we get to the spot where the run forks. I look down the steep hill and almost peed my pants. But I figured they're going to make me go down so here we go!

Almost immediately I gain WAY too much speed and loose control. The next thing I know I'm on my knees getting asked my a person right next to me if I'm ok. I didn't even know what was going on. Apparently I spoke just a little too soon when I told that guy that I was fine. My head started POUNDING and my neck hurt. it was a no bueno time. I look up the hill to see Tim and Sarah gathering all of my belongings.

When I say all I mean ALL!! I lost both of my skis, both poles, my hat, and my goggles. Luckily I managed to keep my gloves on. After lunch boy and girls separated, Sarah and I went down to the resort rental shop to borrowed a helmet. It didn't do much good to get that because the rest of the day I was still a big pansy.

After Sarah and I did a few runs ourselves we decided to go back and conquer the hill that I "yard saled" on. And yes that time I got down that hill without any problem and it was amazing!

It was almost 4 and we didn't have enough time for another run so Sarah and I head back to the car to meet the boys. We get there and Tim is the only one there. Brian ended up getting lost and had to hike out... it wasn't very fun for him, but he finally made it to a lodge about a mile down the road from the Solitude resort (if you want to know about that story... you'll have to ask him).

At the end of the day I had an amazing time and want to ski more now! Today my head still hurts and I can't move my neck at all, but I think it was well worth it!

Saturday Night In!

Yes I'm at home on a saturday night!! It may sound lame, and probably is, but I would just like to say that I don't really care that it is socially weird to stay in on a weekend night.

I mean really what gets better than sitting next to a roaring fire watching "Wallace & Gromit Three Amazing Adventures" and reading 1984?! (That was not a serious question mind you... I know there are plenty of other things that are better options)

I have to admit it is definitely nice though. I'm tired after the whole week of working and dancing. Since Saturdays are my only days off I think I have a bit of a right to stay in and have a nice and quiet night to myself. Don't you agree?

My night has consisted of Facebooking, realizing that I just got Walace and Gromit in the mail today and immediately decided to watch it with a fire going, eating ice cream and now writing a blog about my uneventful night. After I have posted this I'm going to read a bit more of 1984 and then who knows?! Knowing the party animal I'm being tonight I'll probably go to bed! Look at me go!!

Hope everyone enjoyed their Saturday night whatever it was you ended up doing!!

Emotional Wreck!

There are a TON of things I am feeling/thinking right now! I can not even really begin to describe them all! Although, I can say that all the emotions are building up too much. I am starting to break.

O.K. O.K. Maybe Emotional Wreck is too strong of a title for this post, but that's the best thing I can do to come close to expressing what I'm feeling.

I try to be the happy-go-lucky person all the time. Typically speaking I'm really good at doing it. I mean I'm a server, I have learned how to put on a happy face even though someone is a complete and utter a**, so it's easy.

Mind you I'm not complaining.

I am just getting to the point where I think I need a good cry. Which is amazing for me to say. I absolutely LOATHE crying. It's probably the worst thing I have ever experienced! It makes you tired and you look like crap afterward, and EVERYONE can see your emotions! I am not one to tell people I'm going through a hard time. I have the select few that I talk and share these secrets with (I'm sure you can figure out who you are). Certain life experiences have made me a very guarded person.

This may seem insane to those of you who have talked to me... I don't mind sharing every detail about events or my experiences. I can talk anyone's ear off about myself and what I've been through. BUT I rarely ever talk about how I feel or that I'm in trouble.

At any rate, the point is it is becoming a lot for me to handle and I just needed to get that off of my chest! Now I feel a TON better!

American Sign Language in a Music Video

Two things that I absolutely love have come together! Sia in her music video for her song "Soon We'll be Found" is signing and singing the song!

At times the signing is hard to see, but the way the signing is used in the video is amazing! what they do with different colors and black lights is inspiring. It makes me want to pursue a few ideas that I have had!

Watch it it's amazing!

(Unfortunately I couldn't find one that had the embedding option)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNqb17aR3Nc

My Walk for Autism!

What am I doing?
I am participating in a Walk for Autism and I have made a personal goal to raise $300 to donate to finding a cure/raising awareness of Autism!

Why am I doing this?
The reason I am donating my time and effort to this cause isn't because this disorder plagues my own family. It is because I have worked with those with severe autism to those who are very high functioning autistic through out high school. I even taught a little boy in Sunday School at church for a year who is Autistic (Dallin, he is the person the team I joined is in honor of).

Facts:
Autism is the second most common developmental disorder in the United States affecting one in every 150 children born today. Despite some promising discoveries, the cause of autism is unknown and a cure does not exist. Research is crucial. Every 20 minutes another child is diagnosed with autism.

How you can help!
Please join me in my fight to make a difference in the lives of the more than 1 million Americans living with autism today.

Donations are tax deductible to the fullest extent allowed by law.
Autism Speaks 501 (C)(3) Tax Id #: 20-2329938

You can donate by CLICKING HERE.

Or you can copy and paste this link into your browser: http://www.walknowforautism.org/faf/r.asp?t=4&i=288321&u=288321-244270513